Hilarious

I stole this from Toni today - I about spit out my water I laughed so hard. If you are offended, my apologies.

Finishing up my bloodwork tomorrow morning, then just waiting for AF to arrive. DHunter's SA came back with low morph again, but stellar everything else so they said not to worry.

Cheers!

Mother's Day

Today, and every day, I am very grateful to have a mom that understands this particular day is going to be hard for me. We are getting together this afternoon to just "hang out", which isn't all that challenging because we find ourselves doing this several times a month. But, today is obviously a bit different. I am feeling anxious that my SIL is going to be there with my niece. I feel selfish, because I wish today was a time I could just spend with my mom. I don't want to share it. I love my SIL and niece with all my heart, and I hope that if by some crazy chance they read this some day, they can cut me some slack on this. Because right now, I just want to be with my mom and talk with her about My childhood, and Her desire to have kids. I want to hear the stories of her pregnancies, and listen to her talk about the emotions and challenges that came with it all. I want to hear my birth story for the 11 thousandth time. 

I know it probably seems weird that I want to hear all of that, but for me... I don't want to lose sight of this amazing thing we are fighting for. I don't want to lose myself in the treatments, and the pee sticks, and the devastation of everything IF. I want to get myself pumped up again, and feeling hopeful for a positive outcome. I want to tell her about my test results, and talk through the next few weeks and how they could potentially be the most amazing or most difficult so far. I want to have that time today to share with my mom and tell her how much she means to me, and how she has been the most amazing friend, cheerleader, listener and coach I could have ever dreamed of having. 

Instead, I am worried that today is going to be too casual. I am worried that my SIL will somehow be the focus of this Mother's Day. Not that she doesn't deserve it; she and my brother did have to try for about 10 months to get pregnant, and she suffered a m/c in her 6th week about 7 months in. It was all extremely emotional, and I  would never wish any of that on anyone. I guess what I'm getting at though, is that today is going to be a celebration of mothers, and with my SIL being a new mom, I have a feeling today is going to be all her. I feel like we're going to talk about my niece's first birthday coming up next month, and how incredible it is that it's been a year already, etc. I don't feel like I'm going to get any time to be with my mom. 

It'll be fine, though. I will go and keep a smile on my face. I'll cuddle a cute baby for a few hours. I'll laugh and talk about life and tell my mom and SIL how amazing they are. I'll give them the cards I made (they turned out super pretty), and then I'll have a hot dog and some potato salad and call it a day. And then when I come home, I may or may not have a huge meltdown. Today is going to be all about going through the motions. And I know one thing for sure, I am becoming a pro at doing just that. 

One lovely blog award

The always amazing Emily at a blanket 2 keep hooked me up with a new award today. I feel pretty pumped about this for a few reasons - Emily is a total rockstar, and I get super excited whenever I see her comment on my blog. She is super nice and calms my shit out on the regular. I'm also excited because I have missed  having opportunities to talk about other things aside from this wicked IF crap. Hooray blog awards!

Here's the scoop:

1. Share who gave this award to you with a link back to their blog 
2. Write down 7 random facts about yourself
3. Give this award to 13 other bloggers
4. Let them know they have won
5. Pop the award on your blog

oooohkay 7 random factoids...

1. Until I was about 8 years old, I whole-heartedly believed you had to be royalty in order to have twins. I don't even think I believed triplets existed, because the idea of twins completely boggled my mind. 
2. I am really bad about shaving my legs. 
3. I drive a black toaster. 
4. I'm obsessed with soup. I could eat it every single day, regardless of how hot it is outside. My favorite soup is the hubby's French Onion, which he makes with red wine. It is pure joy in a bowl.
5. I have 2 fish tanks with a total of 9 fish, 4 crabs, 2 snails and 1 shrimp between them. One of the fish is named Corndog. The shrimp is Shrimp McShrimpsterston. The saltwater fish are cool, but the freshwater tank is 85 million times easier to maintain. 
6. I am teaching myself how to make a quilt. I might be done with it when I'm 90. 
7. I won a car when I was 16. That was pretty sweet. Sometimes I miss it - it wasn't fancy or anything, but it was a 5speed and bright red. I was unstoppable! 

And now the winners...that I may have to notify tomorrow because I am EXHAUSTED...

1. Maria @ Every Day Is A Country Song - a recent BFP!
2. Michele @ Greetings from Nowhere, NM
3. Mags @ Infertile Thoughts
4. Shannon Marie @ Better Late than Never
5. Jenny @ Sprout
6. Jess @ My Notes on TCC and Life
7. Stephanie @ Bean Journey
8. Kalisu @ Kalisu's Fantasy
9. Ashlee @ savor the moment.
10. Lauren @ The Yoakum crew...
11. Lynn @ Wistfulgirl's World
12. JM @ Meier Madness!
13. Jennifer @ DO I HAVE TO BE A DINK

Enjoy! Thanks again Emily!!

It's been confirmed...

I have a uterus! And ovaries! And they are in really good shape according to my baseline u/s this morning. But maybe I should start from the beginning.

We made the call yesterday to start scheduling our tests, and they said we could come the next day (today). DHunter went in for his contribution at 7 AM - he said this time around was a lot more intense because they had a TV and DVD player set up in case he needed inspiration. He says the worst part is leaving and walking by the nurses because they know what just happened. Awkward, yes - do I feel sorry for him? HELL NO. Especially after that biopsy. That I had to have twice *shudder*

So yeah, the biopsy was uncomfortable. Not sharp pain, or pinching or anything like that. You can't feel sharp tools up there or anything. But it was like I knew something was going on, and it felt like really bad menstrual cramps. And it went so so fast. Until he said he needed to go again, then I was like OH MAN. But the second one went fast too and I think all in all I was in and out of that room in 8 minutes. I have been bleeding and cramping all afternoon and decided to hang out on the couch at home. I'm not lying when I say I'd rather skip the cramps and go back to work, but I'm sure I'll be wishing the opposite when I'm at work tomorrow!

After the biopsy was done, I did my Day 3 (even though I'm not on day 3?) bloodwork. This was done around 9:45, and the results were already back by 2:30!  FSH was a 7, Estradoil was 61 and LH was 10, which they said was all good. I'll go to a regular lab on Saturday to do the rest of my pre-conception tests. I have to do that 2 hour glucose test, so that'll be pretty boring I guess.

Once that was over, I went in for the baseline u/s at 10:00. That was pretty neat to watch. She said my uterus looks good, but is retroverted. She said that may cause more back pain during pregnancy, but shouldn't affect us getting pregnant. She also said I had about 14 follicles on my left ovary and 20 on my right. When we spoke to the nurse afterwards, she said they like to see at least 10 between the two, so I am doing awesome! I felt really good about that.

We got everything done on our list (aside from Saturday's tests), so now we wait for AF to show up (Prometrium) and then get the HSG. I think worst case scenario we'll get to have our regroup appt at the beginning of June. That's a full month before I anticipated, so I am pretty pleased.

The only other thing I wanted to mention was in regards to my weight loss. I'm still hovering around 15 lbs lost since end of January, and I'm hoping to be at 20 lbs lost by the end of May. I'll keep you posted :o)